I can honestly say that every day that goes by i hate more and feel less, I have a better understanding of what it means to have a black heart, i'm annoyed of family and tired of fighting a daily battle to keep friendships that i should clearly drop, i have pets that keep dieing and being taken away from me and no job to occupy my time and gain me so cash to save towards my future. I've come to the point where every bond i have Ive broken there is not one bond that has not changed i look at everyone through different eyes and with people (besides immediate fam)that i looked at feeling feelings of love and friendship i now look at with feelings of betrayal and hatred I don't feel the same way for absolutely anyone i'm tired of over reacting and take things in silly ways but there shouldnt be anything for me to over react over, mr. congeniality is such a fake as title and nicest way to say fake only the title does not speak of a person in his or her self but the people who elected that person, i got that title for treating people in a certain way expecting to treated in the same way which was a sad belief and i am through with all of the shit on my shoulder and i dont give a shit if this makes no sense u can fuck yourself when asked to put my hand up if i knew that i no longer wished to follow that path my hand went up, i turned around and started making my way down the hill and instead of turning and heading back to the place i know i should be i have tripped and cannot stop rolling back down only instead of trying to stop the fall i have given up and allowing myself to keep rollign down the hill and i dont care who i hit on the way down